It’s day 15 and I’m coming out of a serious valley experience day 12-14. Let’s just say I was only about 50% raw on those days. I was tested and I made it. I ate cooked food on Friday and Saturday. I felt really bad about it. I realized that I was very sad about giving up the concept of choice and that my addictions were running me yet again. Saturday I went to pray and meditate with a good friend from work who is a spiritual guide and minister. I felt so much better. I guess I wasn’t feeding my soul. I took time to reflect on having more than vanity as a guide. I guess because of years of low self-esteem, it’s something I struggle with. Intention is so important. I took some time to solidify mine.
Today’s weight 198.5. Thank goodness.
What I ate
- Grapefruit Juice
- Raw Peanuts
- Sandwich bag full of carrots
- Large salad
Tomorrow is another day.
Please don’t ever feel low about this again. Look at what you have gained! New insights into who you are, what you can withstand and can’t. This Passover time, as a mainstream Jewish African-American woman, was very intense. The spiritual side was more heightened this year and the lessons were so soul-stirring. I felt it more because I decided to really eat the way G-d intended us to eat. How many times have I read Genesis 1:29 or heard it chanted, in Hebrew, in synagogue? Numerous! But, this time, just in reading, I REALLY read it and I did a 360 turn.
I started on 19 April, the second day of Passover, and it has been a great time! Right now, I am 50 raw/50 cooked. Taking my time, the raw shall increase but this is a journey! This is what I wish to say to you! We are on a journey. We are going to receive our Manna as we go. Keep moving, keep learning, keep inspiring. You INSPIRE me! Thank you so very much.