Day 10

Yesterday was day 10 on raw food with only 1 day where I wasn’t 90-100% raw!!! Yeah!  This is going better than expected.  Weight today: 180.5

I’ve basically been eating the same thing every day…morning green smoothie, large salad for lunch, either another large salar for lunch or just fruit (grapes or rasberries) and some dried fruit and raw walnuts in the morning and evening.  This is really working well for me.

I’ve been feeling kinda lonely.  Food was my friend.  I hung out with food after work.  Food comforted me.  Food was always there for me.  I mean I’m still eating food, but I’m talking about soul food, comfort food…sugary food especially.  Yesterday after work I went home, but I felt so bored…looking for something to do.  I realize that so much of my energy was focused on eating, not eating, what to eat, and buying/not buying food.  Sure, I have a life…but with that internal struggle subdued it just leaves a void that I now need to fill with LIFE and actual Living!!!  That is exciting.  It makes me happy.  I just don’t know what all that will be, but it’s good to have to opportunity to really live and not just live as a seudo-victim of my tummy.

🙂