My emotional eating continues to be the major revelation I’m having in the process. The reason I’ve eaten to much over the years has nothing to do with hunger or physical need. I eat because I’m lonely, fearful, sad, stressed, confused, bored, lonely, lol. I’m a really happy person, but I wear the mask like everyone else. I’ve been dieting for so long, eating and feeling bad for so long, wishing I was smaller and cuter for so long, envying other people for so long…I’ve wasted a whole lot of time. I realize that I haven’t been happy with my weight since my Junior year of college (at around 160 pounds). That was about 8 years ago. So for eight years I’ve been waisting time. For eight years I’ve been beating myself up. For eight years I’ve been trying various diet plans and getting bigger every year. I could probably teach a college level class on dieting plans…the pros and cons…how to follow them…etc. *Sigh*
It’s time to go 100% raw. It’s time to commit. I’ve been doing well. I’ve been at least 80% raw everyday. I’ve been drinking about 20-24 oz of water per day. I just still have that psychological hurdle to overcome. The cooked food addiction. The addiction that is connected to the cravings. The addiction that makes excuses. I want to stop meeting my emotional needs with food.
Food does not run me. Food does not control me. That is what I want to live…not just strive for, but live. I want to be complete…whole…healed.
Sounds like you’re on a great process :]
Don’t know much about your background but I suggest in the meantime of overcoming your physical hurdles, one thing that will help you become happier more easily is finding out something unique about yourself – it doesn’t has to be something that no one else has, but something that you are most proud of yourself or you hold true to yourself.
Remembering that, you can always remember how much potential is in you to achieve what you want :]